I miss words. I miss how it feels to see the letters come together into words then into sentences until they form a perfectly constructed paragraph that shows a part of me. I miss how I would sit quietly and have my imagination dictate my fingers across the keyboard. It's hard to have those moments these days.
Here I am typing while my iPad is playing QI episodes. At the same time, my phone dings telling me I have messages from friends. I hear vehicles passing by and then there's the loud sound of construction upstairs. My mind is not clear. Definitely piled up with all the backlogs, work tasks and personal agenda.
You know what I should do? I should wake up early. Having a 1pm-9pm work does not mean I can get up at 10 in the morning. I should be awake by 6am like the old days.
Laura Vanderkam in her book "What the Most Successful People Do Before Breakfast" said, "If it has to happen, then it has to happen first." Mornings are important as it gets you into the right pace. I usually wake up early on Monday mornings despite the whole world hating Mondays. Then I slowly go back to my regular hour as the days pass by. On the weekends, I am awake just in time for lunch. I used to have the habit of not being able to sleep past 11:00am. My internal clock was messed up by my previous jobs. I need a fix.
I find it that I can write better if I wake up early. I get to read in the morning, ponder about breakfast then have the satisfaction of drinking coffee while watching British shows.
Maybe it's Vanderkam's book or the coffee talking right now but I really do having solitary time to write in the way I want. I guess I have a lot of backlogs because I don't want the usual rundown of how the trip went on my blog. I want them to be stories that will remind me that I traveled for a reason.
I need to wake up early everyday again.
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